ahh. so back to another week of boarding school. not going out next weekend since i have interhouse dance rehearsal on sunday. and i cant not go cos its compulsory. just feel quite sad cos i'm missing yet another week of church at subi and OCF since i'm at melb the following week and then cos i've got jade's farewell party (she's like a youth leader at my guardian's church and she's going to go to america for a year) so i'll probably be going to FGA on sunday. i love FGA, its just not subi.
i need some sort of direction. i really cant decide now on where to go next year. i'm kinda hesitant about leaving perth, cos i really really am starting to like it here. and i really dont mind staying. but then there's so many people in melbourne.. so 矛盾．． oh well. i'll keep praying about it. maybe i'll see after going to melbourne this round. i dont really wanna go just for friends cos thats not the point of studying there is it. and i'll make friends here too. maybe its just me and how i dont like change, especially after coming here only this year and settling down already. there's just so much perth has to offer and i can offer perth. especially in ministry. hmm. i'll probably just apply to both. and i really dont want God to close a door, because it might mean that i'll get a lower TER (since to get into melbourne i need a higher score.) bleagh.
(i guess i was just talking all about me huh. nothing about what God wants but what i want. sigh.)
today's sermon was really empowering too. if i have faith as small as a mustard seed i can uproot a mulberry tree. i dont need to tell God to increase my faith when i do things because its God that is the one that is at work through me, not my own strength. i know i can do things because he is with me. i will go places.
a shout of praise.
6:34 PM
